"This is me looking forward to that."

This is me realizing whatever we had might have been good at one time but we aren’t those people anymore. This is me letting go of the memories I clung to out of fear of forgetting because I know I’ll never forget you. This is me no longer letting the past haunt me with what-ifs or maybes. Because that’s no place to live your life. This is me really happy for you and actually meaning it because I know how rare it is to find someone. And it no longer hurts me that you did. This is me walking away and not looking back this time. Even though there are moments I want to. This is me letting go of thinking we could ever get it right because if we were meant to we probably would have already. This is me letting go of phone calls in the morning and texts at night because I need them to come from someone who will choose me and only me. This is me realizing maybe we loved each other the best we could and maybe that’s enough. This is me letting go of the idea of us because I’m beginning to realize that’s all it ever was. This is me acknowledging the fact that what we had was real and honest. And even though it wasn’t a love that lasted, it was a love that changed me. This is me moving forward instead of hoping you’d ask me to stay. This is me realizing I might always love you but it doesn’t mean I won’t love someone with that same intensity again. This is me looking forward in that. - Kirsten Corley